Date night :]

Hello, sorry about the lack of updates. I am in a rough spot at the moment where I can't make videos everyday. Ha, I will start making more soon. I am still sorry about it. I will explain more soon. Thank you for watching. Y'all make me happy!!!!!!!!!!! :D

The diet plan

Now: 218 pounds

Goal: 190-200

Life, life, life.

I'm very sleepy. This is me ranting on about my wedding next year, how broke I am, and just a lot of junk. Haha. Enjoy!

The run down! Watch it. :)

WHAT?! A VIDEO!??! NO WAY!?

YES WAY! :D

Enjoy. It has much needed info you need to know!

don't ask

http://artistically-photolicious.blogspot.com/

Shit

No new video tonight. I may do one in the morning when I wake up. I can't do one right now because...honestly..I am to depressed. I ended up cutting my wrist again. I need to stop I know. It's harder than you think. I guess I have to deal with covering this up now. Hopefully it won't scar..although I wish it sort of would. Um, yeah. My wrist is burning now. Video tomorrow. Night.

Another angry rant!

Happy SUPER LATE birthday Adam :)

Happy LATE Birthday Adam!

Like, super late. Like, more than a week late.

But here you go:)

Rain?! OH NO!

I need more topics to talk about. Haha, I mainly sit there and stare at my own face xD

I am super sleepy

Flower Nazi

Hii you.

Eh

Job Interview.

VeggieBurger:P

So, today is the day I am going to go through my whole facebook friends list and just cut a shit load of people from it. I am really sick of seeing this one mother fucker (from last night's blog) sit there and say he loves he's wife and he can't live without her. He has said that to a lot of girls, I know, I can read. Then this guy I have liked since I was younger than 10...has a girlfriend now. That broke my heart a little. I've liked him for so long. Everyone is so happy...and..well, I'm not. I feel like doing something very drastic to my look now..to make me happy to make me not feel like myself. I don't want to feel like myself anymore. For once, I want to be someone else.

Bored post:)

new glasses

I got my new glasses today. WOOT! I do ,seriously, remind myself of Emma Stone. She is my lesbian crush! <3 :D

10 minute video? Say whahh.

i hate work

WhyamIcrying

Sometimes I wish I couldn't cry. It would be so much easier.

First day at work.

I did not say tree sperm. I swear. Haha.

POKEMON GOTTA CATCH EM ALL WHOO-OO

LMFAO

My day was..:)

This was so funny.

These were the cutest brothers ever. Haha. Jacob (left) John (right) .:)

The awesome bearded man. That is what I called him. :D

John! Again. Haha, I liked his gaped teeth :P

Nails! :D

I am a dork. ^-^ Hehe.

depressed

Food!

Yummy

:)

Icky medicine

This was some nasty ass medicine. :( EVIL!

Super mad.

I am super mad in this video. After I watched it though I laughed my ass off because I see how funny I look when I am mad. Go ahead & laugh because I know you do. :P I don't think I have ever said the F word so many times in one sitting.

Long day & a job interview!

:)

A blog on how I saw a movie and how my ex boyfriend is talking to me again about things. About how I found my friend after almost 3 years. I have writers block on my screenplay and how I plucked my eyebrows and how I am wearing purple lipstick that looks rather good on me. Now I shall go to sleep. :P

Saturday

I'm upset. End of story.

The "I don't know what I'm talking about" video.

I know I look really tired and drained I am sure. Ha, also I know I have a missing tooth. Ha, this video is about a ton of nothing but enjoy this shit. Thank you :P

....Yeah

Okay, so I will upload a video later. I just need to vent a little. I don't know why but I am mega sad right now. I mean, I don't know if it's depression, I think it's just sadness. I have a friend who made me make a promise not to hurt myself in any way. Because the night that he said that I had ended up hurting myself while he was standing there, he just didn't know it because he had his back turned. I took a pen cap and tore part of it off to make something sharp and when I wasn't chewing on it or the pen to calm my nerves I would scratch the shit out of my arm to where it was just red and purple. It didn't do major damage, it just put a huge mark on my arm for about 10 minutes. It calmed me. Well, I ended up crying that night right in front of him and just flat out told him, "Sometimes I want to hurt myself. I'm sad, and I don't know why. People ask why and I don't have the answers for it." Which is true. Sometimes I just want to hurt to hell out of myself and not give a shit who see's it because it helps calm me. That's why I'm chewing on a safety pin right now is because I want to hurt myself but I can't. I know I am better than that. I used to have a bad thing about harming myself everyday. I would cut everyday just like someone would brush their teeth. I remember I would go to school with my arm full of cuts one after another and have my sleeves rolled up just to see who would notice. I eventually got send to a behavioral rehabilitation center near me. Ten days of my life were lived there. It sucked but it also helped for some time until real life came back and hit me in the face. I do have a few scars. Nothing to bad though. Small white ones you can see on a summer day after I have sweated. They turn like pink. I have one on each thigh where the blade dropped twice on them. I think the dumbest thing I did was cut my leg up badly and wore a dress the next day. I forgot I had did that. I think I just enjoy the pain. I mean, I do enjoy that type of pain. That is why I like piercings. It is a pain. I like being scratched and roughed up when with a guy, it is pain and I enjoy it. But...like I have said, it helped calm me when stressed. Right now..I sort of just want to just do a small cut on my leg...but I promised...and that kills me.

Ranting blog. Happy almost weekend you guys!

Okay, ha. This video is so random. I did one before this but didn't like it as much. So, I just made a new one. 5 minutes, I hope someone has 5 minutes to spare watching this video. Um, I will post another one before the night is over I'm sure. :P xoxo

UPDATE: School & Squirrel!

Okay, that school tour was very long. I would like to go to the school but the want to much information. Why the hell do you need to see my shot form? I'm so confused. Anyway, I need to talk to my mom about it and then they want me to see them again next Tuesday. Damn, I hope I don't fall asleep like almost did today. I won't if my mom will even let me go to this school. I sort of hope so, it's so small and everyone is super nice. Anyway, I will let that be it for now. I will chat with you all later. Bye:)

School tour. Yay.

I was kind of upset my hair won't stay like I want it to stay. 

Kickboxing, Jobs, Animals and School

This was my day. It was a very long day. Now I am cold and tired. :P

Vlog. Day one.

This had to be one of the hardest and craziest things I have ever done. It was so simple to do but took a lot of guts to do it. I had to stand up to someone I once did like and say hello and hope they did not screw me over in the process.